Tomorrow is the first day of orientation. I look forward to meeting many of my future classmates, those with whom I will be spending the next four years together being turned into competent physicians. Although I’m already in my mid-20s, still young but supposedly in my “prime”, I still feel somewhat mentally unprepared.
I’ve recently read a lot of posts online from those getting ready to begin medical school. Students write about their nervousness, excitement, always looking towards the next step. Which is all fine, there really isn’t much you can do prior to class to get ready for what’s coming.
On Friday night I went to Biergarten to meet others in my class. Most of them were very friendly and outgoing, and I can already tell it will be a pleasure to learn from them. I hope to get to know them, and many others, throughout the course of this week and the rest of the year.
For now, I just need to switch my time schedule to go to bed and wake up earlier. If there is one thing I want to accomplish this semester, it is to turn myself into a morning person! I know for a fact my brain works better in the morning – now I just need to take advantage of that!
When I was doing the MBS program, I used to study like this:
- Get my ass to campus around 11am or noon.
- Grab some food and eat while browsing Reddit.
- Finally after being bored, download a series of about 4 lectures that I had missed and start going through them, writing down in my notebook (1st sem.) or taking notes on Evernote (2nd sem.).
First semester was okay, but by second semester, I was so inefficient, lazy, and unfocused that I almost dropped the ball entirely on one of my classes. I was undisciplined. On days that I felt particularly indifferent, I would stay home and barely get any studying done.
Sure, the week before exams I would buck up and cram all the lectures in at once. There were times where the exam would be on a Monday, and I would actually start really studying on Wednesday. It did not work well at all. There are just not enough hours in those five days to learn everything.
I’m really hoping to correct this when I start classes in about a month and a half. I really need to learn how to make myself focus on the task at hand. Procrastination is not an option.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.
I’ve been so worried about this med school thing. Wait-listed at two, still waiting to hear back from one more. Before every momentous step along this process, I’ve cried out to God to provide me with the strength and faith to believe that the outcome is what he has in mind for me, that I have the humility to accept wherever I may be. But this whole thing has been so nerve-wracking, it’s hard for me to put my mind anywhere else. I’m so scared of the alternative, of failure. I need God to give me peace.